Just feeling like it

im writings this on May 18. u know what day it is? i don't fucking know. 

do u know why im writing this? i don't fucking know.just feeling like it.

so many months have passed sonce i wrote this kind of diary. 

during that time, theres so many things going all around the world. the biggest topic is obviously the coronavirus.  it's crazy. people all around the world are staying at home and sacrificing their owm lifes. but still theres almost no way to stop the crazy virus. 

there are so many people who have died of it and i am really sorry for them,  their family, and their friends. but the saddest thing to me is that i cannot travel and communicate with the people who live there, the community, and the culter they have. i trust all people are created equal and there is no superior or that kind of thing.

everyone has a different talent, and all the components are distributed to everyone equally. so in that way, the farther you go the better u get spcial experiences ( the grammer doesn't sound right but you know what i meant). Japan is pretty small country, and all people have sort of similar experiences and values. but when u go europe for example, they have different cultur, values, language, and so on. but they stiil live as we do. all i have done for my whole life was thay i experienced something different from what my friends would do. i loc e the moment that something blows my mind . i feel it most when met something that i have never thought or experienced. that makes me excited. but now... the virus literally freeezed all the planes and cities, i can't get excited.

just realized my writing skill is really bad and i use all the words that 5 years old kid would learn in a year. but i keep this diary for me to see how i am like. not gonna deny myself. BE ME. oyasumi